Snuggle
By Blacknight99
Chapter One
Incentive
Alright, let’s face it. You probably decided to give this little narrative a try because you thought it might contain some hot sex … and maybe a little lurid erotic mind control. Okay. I can promise you some of that. It’s here, right in these pages. But this time, you’re going to encounter more. Lots more. A few years ago, I never actually believed that truly evil men existed … or that real terror would touch those around me. I had always figured that, eventually, the bad guys lose and the good guys win. They don’t, of course. Bad guys win all the time. Well, most of time, anyway. And us good guys? Well, I’m here to tell you, that with a little hard work, pure intentions and perseverance …. Yeah, sure. Only in your dreams. Right?
And then again, maybe ….
I am a nerd. Now, if you’re like most people, that term conjures up a certain image. Hollywood hasn’t helped, of course. But, like most preconceptions, the image is wrong. The word itself has mixed definitions. A standard dictionary will declare a nerd to be stupid in one line, and intelligent (if single-minded) in the next. Most people who qualify for nerdom wouldn’t be able to define it themselves. I, however, came across the perfect meaning myself a few years ago.
I was shanghaied into going to a wedding with a girlfriend. Yes, nerds have girlfriends. Well alright, she wasn’t exactly a real girlfriend, but we had been out on three or four dates. Women love weddings. Weddings are planned by women, arranged by women, orchestrated by women specifically FOR women. Guys are more or less just along for the ride. I did not react well … I never do at those sorts of things. I didn’t know anybody else there, and I wound up just loitering around the periphery of the reception room, watching, while the women and their ensnared gentlemen all did the “chicken dance” and hokey pokey and other inane acts of revelry.
As I stood there, drowning in my misery, I noticed another guy just standing around, too. This fellow, however, did not fit anyone’s definition of a nerd. He was tall, muscular, young, handsome … the type of man that single girls fall all over themselves for … but since he appeared to be out-of-touch with the gaiety around him, I thought I’d wander over and strike up a conversation. He wasn’t very talkative. I finally pried a few facts out of him. He was a “Naval Aviator” … a pilot … one of those gung-ho idiots that fly jet aircraft into the decks of aircraft carriers and hopes something stops him. He had driven out from Norfolk with his wife. The bride was her cousin.
I felt an urge to ask all the questions that I suppose most people would ask a guy like that. You know … how does somebody actually DO that sort of thing? Is it scary? How much training does it take? That sort of thing. But, of course, those were probably the types of questions he was trying to avoid, standing off from the crowd the way he was doing. Instead, I said: “You don’t seem to be enjoying yourself very much. You don’t like parties?”
He glanced at me and shrugged. “Oh, I love parties. I was at a great squadron party just last week. But nobody here really speaks my language.”
And I thought: Bingo. That’s it. That’s me. That’s the definition. A nerd is someone who’s socially withdrawn because nobody around him speaks his language.
Now, you’re probably going to point out that it’s a two-way street … and you’d be right, of course. I really SHOULD have tried to speak in terms of chicken dances and hokey pokeys. But my language of cyber cryptology, CERT/CC and OWASP is so very much more interesting. I’m certain that if some other pilot/nerd/Adonis had shown up at that wedding reception, that quiet fellow I talked to would have been great company, with his left hand chasing his right through immelmans and barrel rolls and split-S’s as he related tales of dogfights and bomb runs. You just have to find somebody that speaks your language.
Fortunately, I know somebody that speaks mine. It took me long enough to hook up with him. I never really hit it off with any of my college roommates … until I answered an ad to share an apartment my senior year. Frank was different. While we didn’t share the same major (he was in computer graphics, I was into security software applications), he could not only SPEAK my language, he’d listen. He also became the best friend I’ve ever had.
We started off small enough, selling little programs, gimmicks, applications, services. I’d help him market some new avatar or cartoon character, then he’d help me test some new security idea for a personal phone app … that sort of thing. It wasn’t until we’d been working together for two years that we came up with an idea that would combine both fields. It was sort of a stroke of genius, actually. I thought of it, of course. Don’t ask him, though … he’ll tell you it was HIS idea. Whoever. We immediately realized it was a completely new concept. And … we realized it was going to be worth a lot. A whole lot. We worked hard on the thing … day and night … weeks, and months. And when we finally figured out how to get over the last hurdle, it all just seemed to click … one of those true “Eureka” moments.
Since you probably don’t speak the language, let me describe it like this. There are dozens of elements in a computer game. In just about every case, however, there are two overriding factors that make or break it as far as sales: writing and graphics. There wasn’t much either one of us was going to do about writing, since neither of us were writers. But Frank was good with graphics. And I mean, he was really good. Once a game is published, however, the graphics code is pretty much up for grabs. Anybody can take a background graphic (just as an example) and with a little massaging, turn it into a background for a competing game. The image might LOOK completely different, but the code would be roughly the same. In other words, you might spend months putting together a masterpiece, but with very little effort, your competition could rip it off and use the code YOU slaved over. We figured out how to protect it. The magic, of course, was not so much with the encoding as with the decoding. With a little compression, we could fit BOTH onto a standard game DVD, with enough room to spare for the game code itself. It was all done using a variable algorithm that never repeated. I’m not going to get into specifics, other than to say that if another company really, really wanted to defeat this encryption, and if they could come up with the money to buy time on a quasi-opportunistic supercomputing distributed-array to figure it out, it would still take eight or nine months to hit the proper code sequence. By that time, the original game would be obsolete. And every disk used a different code.
We were going to be rich.
My biggest error (and, looking back, I made so MANY errors) was that I’d taken a couple courses in contract law, and I figured I could handle any deal myself. Frank (friendly, innocent, loyal Frank) simply took me at my word and entrusted the entire project to my “expertise.” I decided to sell the rights for fifteen million dollars. I just sort of pulled that figure out of thin air. The truth be known, I really had no idea what the thing was worth. My next biggest error was that I decided to approach Apocalyptic Arrow Arts & Electronics, the largest privately owned game manufacturer in the world. I was so absolutely sure that nobody could reverse-engineer the process, that we downloaded a popular public domain game, applied our concept, and sent off a DVD to Rankin Toddworth himself … yes, right to the head of the company. I was right about them not being able to crack our code, by the way. What I was wrong about was Toddworth. I’d heard rumors … that he was a ruthless, unscrupulous businessman. But I had no idea what he was capable of doing. I had no idea that ANYBODY was capable of what was to follow.
It didn’t take long. Two weeks later, we received a phone call from a lawyer here in town who said he wanted to see us. He came to our apartment and presented us with a very official-looking contract which would grant them exclusive rights to the process … and there was a certified check for three million bucks. I suggested to Frank that we turn it down flat and make no counter offer. Frank was actually, physically drooling over that check, but he stoically took my advice. The lawyer, on the other hand, didn’t even blink an eye. He thanked us for our time and left. Just like that. I didn’t get much sleep that night. As the days … and then the weeks … dragged by, I felt as if I’d probably made a huge mistake.
But fifteen days after we first saw him, the lawyer paid us a second visit. Instead of another offer, he asked us to sign for delivery of a large, thick envelope … and he left again. Just like that. I swear, I could never be a lawyer. The envelope bore a formal request to visit Rankin Toddworth, Esq., at his home in Danbury, Connecticut. There were airplane tickets (first class, of course) from Denver to New York; there was an envelope containing fifteen thousand dollars cash (for incidental travelling expenses); there was a cell phone with several numbers programmed in; and there was a list of instructions about who to call (and when) for limousine services, both here in Denver and then in New York. Mr. Toddworth looked forward to meeting us in person and discussing our “kind offer” regarding our computer process. Dinner on Thursday night (two days hence) would be “black tie casual,” and rooms in the house would be at our disposal for the night. His personal chef’s specialty was veal cordon bleu.
Now, that should have been a red flag right there. Frank is absolutely ecstatic about veal cordon bleu … his all-time favorite dish. Looking back on it now, it should have been obvious that Toddworth had had us investigated. I mean, anybody who cuts a check for three mil and has it delivered by a guy like Mister “Just Like That” certainly has the dough to scout out a couple nerds in suburban Denver. He probably knew everything about us, from the color of our eyes to when we took a crap (I would soon learn that at least the former was true). But the cash, of course, was the real incentive. Neither of us owned a suit, and we had to look up “black tie casual” on the internet before heading to the mall for clothes and luggage. I don’t think it ever really dawned on us to turn the invitation down.
By the time we landed at Kennedy and got in the limousine, I finally broke the code. Champagne on the way to DIA, Champagne on the flight, Champagne now. We were going to be blitzed by the time we got there. Frank reluctantly agreed, and we swore off. It was a full two hour drive to Danbury, even though the traffic was relatively light that time of day (or at least, that’s what the driver told us), and the sun was very low when we finally turned into the gated driveway of the Toddworth mansion. It was quite a place … right out a gothic novel. Anybody would have been impressed, but especially two nerds from the Midwest.
Toddworth himself answered the door. “Mr. Rustman, I presume. May I call you Randy? And you must be Frank Green. Wonderful to meet you both. I’m sure you smell dinner. Gooswin is outdoing himself in the kitchen. This is Bains. He’ll show you to your rooms in the East Wing. You only have forty-five minutes, I’m afraid. We’ll party a little tonight … enjoy ourselves. Business tomorrow, after we get to know each other. See you soon!”
I’d never owned a suit that fitted me like that one. We’d gone to a tailor and spent $550 apiece for them so they’d be done in time for the trip. The tailor had taken one look at us, told us not to argue, and had chosen shirts and ties, as well (for an extra hundred bucks each, but we hadn’t resisted). He wrote us a note, telling us what brand and type of shoes to get. Damn, we looked sharp! Our rooms were next to each other, but didn’t adjoin, and each had its own bathroom. There was a mirror at the end of the hall, and when we looked at ourselves in it … well, it just LOOKED like we were in the big league, you know? Frank’s a bit on the gangling side, tall and thin and sort of awkward. I’d tried my best to put a little muscle on him over the past year or so … my Dad had bought me a Stairmaster when we moved last time, and I’d been using it pretty religiously. So had Frank, at my insistence.
We got lost getting back downstairs, but eventually, we found Toddworth in a huge den, sipping a drink with another man, who he introduced as Ephraim Yarnell, a personal friend (and lawyer). He mixed us martinis, which neither of us particularly liked, though I’m sure they were made with the absolute finest ingredients. Yarnell left us for awhile, and Old Man Toddworth started walking us around the room, telling us about the artwork on the walls, the books in the bookcase, the trophy head above the mantle … things like that. The truth of the matter is that we weren’t all that impressed, but what are you going to do but listen and nod, you know what I mean?
And then suddenly, there was Yarnell, the lawyer again. And with him were these two gorgeous girls. And Toddworth was saying “Ah … please let me introduce Janie and Kendra. Girls, this is Frank and Randy. Gentlemen, please let me be clear about this. You are certainly under no obligation, but I expect my guests to be comfortable and happy. Whether we decide to do business or not, these ladies are yours for the night. Do with them what you will. They are here to serve only you. Shall we go into dinner now?”
Well, boil my grits (as my grandfather used to say)!
Alright … I told myself when I decided to write this narrative that I was not going to spend too much time on descriptive phrases. But let’s face it; that one moment in time is what this story is all about. It all started right there. To say that you could have knocked Frank and me over with a feather would not be too much of an exaggeration. These girls were beautiful. They were foxy. They were stunning. And … they were strange. From the very first second, there was something strange about them … something you couldn’t really put your finger on … but something that only got stranger and stranger as the seconds and minutes ticked by. Still, some factors overcome the importance of others … and strangeness is evidently easily overcome by beauty.
Other than their striking elegance and magnificence, the girls had absolutely nothing in common. One was tall, the other short. One was white, the other black. The tall one was slim, had long blonde hair, pale complexion, small breasts and slender hips, and she was dressed in a dark blue silk halter-top dress that hugged her body like a second skin. And the first skin was obviously as smooth and tactile as the fabric that covered it. The only things that were NOT smooth were her nipples, which were very prominent and seemed to point accusingly at us. The short girl had a close-cropped short afro hairstyle that accentuated her long neck and amazing skin, which was a cross between light chocolate and burnished copper. Her breasts were very generous, considering her height, and she wore a short dress of green velvet … the kind of material that’s so rich and soft that your natural instinct is to touch it. Her eyes held a spark of raw intelligence that seemed to light the whole room. It took me a long moment to realize that I noticed those eyes because they were directed toward me, and no one else. They studied me, scrutinized me … I swear, they seemed to almost worship me. I glanced nervously around, only to find that Janie, the blonde, was doing almost exactly the same, only to Frank. Frank, for his part, was just standing there, openmouthed, trapped in her gaze.
And then slowly, the strangeness began to manifest itself. The girls were close. Very close. Their shoulders and arms and hips and legs were touching all along the length of them as they stood side by side. They were holding hands, but because Kendra was so much shorter, her arm was slightly bent. Their fingers interlocked, but seemed to move slightly, caressing gently. Toddworth and Yarnell had walked away from us, I assumed toward the dining room, leaving the four of us staring at each other. Without a word, Kendra reached out toward me with her free hand, cleared her throat, and said: “I suppose we should go in to dinner.” And oddly, as her hand extended toward me, Janie’s hand reached out toward Frank, exactly the same. Instinctively, I took the smaller girl’s hand in mine … just as Frank took Janie’s … and then (and only then) did the girls let go of each other and move apart.
I turned to follow our host, and as I did so, Kendra turned with me, her hand clutching mine. The weirdness of the past few seconds left me with a bizarre impression, and I shook my head a little to clear it. I took my hand out of Kendra’s to hold the dining room door open for her, and with a suddenness that shocked me, the girl reached up and clutched my upper arm with both hands. I glance down at her, puzzled, but she averted her eyes and simply followed as I got my feet moving again and led her into the large dining room.
Inside, Toddworth was speaking, indicating where we should sit … Frank and me on one side facing the girls on the other. Kendra didn’t move to go to her seat, and neither did Janie, so that I suddenly wondered what the proper protocol was in such a situation. After a few seconds, I walked around the end of the table a bit clumsily, Kendra still clutching my arm, until I had maneuvered her to her assigned place. I pulled out her chair with the arm she wasn’t trying to strangle, but still she refused to let go until Janie was within striking distance, and their hands shot out toward one another’s and touched. Finally, the grip on my upper arm was relinquished, and, a bit dazed, I walked back around to my own chair.
The food was very good. I remember that much about the meal, but not a heck of a lot more. Toddworth prattled on and on, but I can’t tell you what he said … I was too wound up in trying to figure out what was going on … who the girls were, and what was behind their odd behavior. I had the strangest desire to lift up the table cloth and peer under the table; certain that if I did, I’d catch them playing footsies. They were always touching. Their shoulders and upper arms were in constant contact, and from time to time, when the meal paused between courses, they held hands, as if it the most natural thing in the world. Toddworth asked a general question … I wasn’t really paying attention, but I perked up as Kendra answered it, saying that the women’s translations were far superior to the men’s … and Janie said that the best was the Julie Rose translation … but Kendra countered that Isabel Hapgood’s was better, and most certainly better than Wilbour’s or Denny’s. I didn’t find out until later that they had been talking about Les Miserables, by Hugo. Then, as an extension of that, he began quizzing them about Jules Verne. Frank mentioned that he always thought Verne wrote in English, which made both girls giggle. Kendra smirked a little, but Janie couldn’t seem to bear Frank being embarrassed, and explained patiently something about translators working for the Royal Geographical Society in England and some other stuff. The way Frank was looking at her, I don’t really think he was listening, either … he just seemed content watching her lips move.
Toddworth announced that it was time for cigars and brandy in the “drawing room,” but as I rose, I mentioned that I had to visit the bathroom. Yarnell pointed down a hall and told me where it was, and I prodded Frank as a signal. When he didn’t seem to notice, I prodded him a little harder. He issued a small “ouch!” but finally got the message and excused himself, as well, though his eyes never left Janie’s. She was blushing, for some reason, and I noticed she was squeezing Kendra’s hand hard enough to make her shorter companion wince. I lead the way down the hall, anxious to talk this whole thing over, but as soon as we were out of earshot, he was yammering away like little kid.
“Holy shit, Dude! Can you believe those girls?” He suddenly sobered. “Randy, I gotta tell you, I haven’t been with a girl in a couple years. I’m a little nervous, man.”
I gawked. “I didn’t think you’d EVER been with a girl.”
“Give me a break, Dude. Of course I’ve been with a girl.” He paused to reflect. “I mean, it wasn’t really planned or anything … but it was nice. I mean, I thought it was nice. And I guess she did, too, because she wanted to go out again, and we ….” He stopped and regarded me again. “Fuck that shit, man. I need to think about THIS! About Janie! I mean, what if she …?”
“Snap out of, Frank!” I ordered, exasperated. “The girls are hookers! They’re paid to make you THINK they’re enjoying it! That’s just what hookers DO! We’ve got to keep this in perspective. We’ve got a hell of a lot of money riding on this!”
Frank’s face darkened. “Don’t call her a hooker, man.”
I deflated a little and took pity. How was I going to reason with that level of lust? “Aw, Frank. Think about it. He told us the girls were ours for the night. ‘Do with them what you will,’ he said. They were standing right there, and they never even blinked at that. THEY know the score. Why don’t you?”
His shoulders sagged, and he took a deep, mournful breath. “Yeah, I guess you’re right.” He shook his head slowly. “But, Dude … the way she LOOKS at me! There’s something there, I swear! And Randy, she can TALK. I mean, she doesn’t just talk, she SAYS things! Do you know the last time I met a girl I could talk to?” He sighed. “A guy can dream, man.”
I sighed and put my hand on his shoulder. “Go ahead and dream. You deserve it. But I need you to keep a grasp on what’s real, too.” I paused, considering. “And there’s something wrong with those two. Have you noticed it?”
“What do you mean?”
“They’re always touching. They’re never separated.”
He grinned. “I think it’s sort of hot. Do you think they’re lovers?”
I shook my head. “Even if they are, they’re taking it to an extreme.” I shook my head. “No, the way Kendra looks at me … the way Janie looks at you … there’s something about it … a hunger. And I think it’s more than sexual. They’re hungry for … US. Not just sex … but US.” I paused again. “I have a nephew … my sister’s kid. Four years old. He really loves it when I come to visit. I read to him all the time. He just wants to BE with me. When he sees me, his whole face lights up. THAT’s the look. That’s the way those girls are looking at us! They want to BE with us … and yet … they never let go of each other. It’s just really weird.”
There was nothing left to say, and so we made our way back to the dining room. The others had left, and we followed the sound of male voices through two more rooms before we found them, standing in front of a blazing fireplace. The girls had gone to powder their noses. Frank and I both declined the proffered cigars, accepted huge snifters of cognac, and tried to stay away from the bluish billows of Cuban smoke coming from Toddworth and Yarnell while keeping up the semblance of conversation. Finally, the girls strode back into the room, hand-in-hand, of course, and as if by mutual consent, they made a beeline toward us. As they arrived, they finally parted, Kendra immediately snaking her arm through mine, while Janie seized Frank’s hand.
“Tell me why you’re here.” Kendra spoke softly, so that only I heard the question, and she tugged my arm gently in the direction of the love seat under one of the huge windows, away from the two older men by the fireplace. I followed instinctively, watching, bemused, as Janie steered Frank toward a couch in the corner.
“As if you didn’t know,” I answered.
She looked genuinely confused. I didn’t think she could fake an expression like that. “But I don’t know,” she said, still keeping her voice low. “Do you write video games for Mr. Toddworth? Are you a professional writer, too?”
That had me flummoxed, and I decided to ignore it. “That was a pretty neat trick just now, coyly separating Frank and me.”
She looked down and blushed. Yes, she blushed; no doubt about it. I didn’t know black people COULD blush; but now, thinking about it dispassionately for the very first time in my life, I didn’t know where I picked up that misconception. My first impulse was to take her in my arms and comfort her, but I resisted. “I suppose it was pretty obvious,” she said, speaking in the general direction of her feet. “I’m sorry if I made you feel … uncomfortable. But in the bathroom … well … Janie wanted to be alone with Frank. She’s got it in her head that he’s … uh … well, she thinks he’s pretty special. She just wants a chance to get to know him. And she asked if I could … um … distract you, I guess. And now, I feel like a real horse’s ass, making you sit here and talk to me. And ….”
“Oh, for crying out loud!” I exclaimed, holding up both hands in a gesture of surrender … which was a little difficult, because Kendra still had her arm entwined in mine. “I’m sorry. I really apologize, no kidding. I’M the horse’s ass, not you. It’s just that Frank and I are trying to sell some code to Toddworth, and … well … being a natural born horse’s ass, I just sort of assumed that everyone in this house is the enemy.”
She looked up at me with huge, questioning eyes. “Code? Like with spies?”
I barked a laugh. “Computer code, Kendra. For video games.”
She nodded and lowered her eyes again. “Of course. I’m stupid.”
I hooked a fingertip under her pert little chin and turned her face toward mine, realizing immediately that it was a mistake. Our faces were scant inches apart, and for some reason, I got the impression that we were like two magnets getting too close to keep apart. I swallowed nervously, before saying: “Of all the people here tonight, you are the least stupid person, by far. That stuff about translators ….”
“Mr. Toddworth set up the questions, knowing that we knew the answers,” she responded, gazing deeply into my eyes. “I don’t know why he did that. He was trying to impress you with us for some reason. He knew that Janie and I met while taking a foreign authors class in college.” She studied me intently. “Are you going to kiss me now? I didn’t think it would happen so soon. I’m not sure I’m ready yet.”
I pulled away from her a little to study her, but she tried to stay close, clutching my arm to do so. I looked at her questioningly. “Not ready?” Her expression didn’t change. She was trying to see something in my eyes, staring questioningly, longingly. I took a deep breath. “Look ... Kendra … please forgive my confusion. I’m really puzzled here. I’ve never been with a professional lady before.”
She kept studying me. “Professional? A woman writer, you mean?” And a moment later, her eyes widened to huge circles as she suddenly understood my meaning. “Professional!” she gasped. Tears immediately flooded her eyes, and as she finally lowered them, embarrassed, they overflowed and spilled down her cheeks like rivers that had crested their banks. She abruptly tried to stand, but she couldn’t without relinquishing her hold on my arm, which she didn’t seem capable of doing.
I stumbled to my feet, more or less so that she, too, could stand. “What the hell?” I muttered, wishing immediately that I hadn’t said it out loud. She turned to go, but couldn’t. She wanted to leave me, but seemed incapable of breaking our physical contact.
“Please take me to your room now,” she said between clenched teeth. “Let’s get it over with. This is what he wanted. This is why we’re here. Let’s just do it.”
Somehow, every time I opened my mouth I stuck my foot in it, so I resolved to say nothing else until I had her alone. I forcefully turned her toward the door, jerking my arm free of hers, in the process. At the same time, I wrapped my other arm around her waist and pulled her to my shoulder (into which she immediately buried her face). In this posture, no one could see she was crying … it just looked, more or less, like she was being overly affectionate. “Folks, if you’ll please excuse us, I think we’ll turn in for the evening,” I announced to the room in general. I steered her toward the hallway. My eyes sought out Frank, but he and Janie were engaged in a serious smoochfest on the couch, and he obviously hadn’t heard me.
“Have a great time, Randy!” Toddworth laughed. “I know it’s going to be a memorable night. Kendra there will do absolutely anything you want. Anything at all. Isn’t that right, Kendra?”
She made a sound into my shoulder … a sort of whimpering groan, and I increased our pace until we were well clear of the room. “What an unmitigated asshole!” I hissed. I tried to think violent thoughts about him, but my entire consciousness was taken up by the amazing texture of the velvet dress my arm and hand were enjoying. Her stomach and sides were firm, yet soft, and I was afraid that if I left my hand there too long, it would happily take root. She was wearing a very subtle perfume that made me want to nuzzle the side of her neck, seeking the spots she’d applied it to. When we came to the stairs, I didn’t pause, steering her upward, but when we’d finally reached the upper hallway, I stopped. She seemed content, for the moment, just to be led; and now, unresisting, she allowed me to turn her toward me as I supported her, holding her by the shoulders. The tailor had insisted on handkerchiefs to finish off the ensembles, and I fished it out of my breast pocket. Silk makes lousy handkerchiefs. It wasn’t very absorbent and primarily, it just smeared the tears around her cheeks.
“Kendra, I’m really, really sorry for what I said down there. I’m trying to act like somebody I’m not. The last thing I want to do tonight is make you sad. I’m extremely confused right now, that’s all.” I took deep breath, which didn’t help because the air was tinted with her perfume. I couldn’t seem to grasp a coherent thought. “I should probably just take you to your room. Where is it?”
She blinked up at me, uncomprehending. “I … I’m not sure. I’m a little lost. We’ve been … um … downstairs.” She couldn’t make herself meet my questioning gaze, and suddenly, she snatched the hanky and wiped her face while lowering her eyes nervously. “You … you don’t want me?”
I didn’t seem to be able to keep a low moan out of the sigh I issued. “Of course I want you. You’re just about the most gorgeous girl I’ve ever seen. But … I don’t think I could forgive myself if I made you cry again, and I don’t seem capable of opening my mouth without saying something brainlessly idiotic.”
She looked up at me again, wonder in her eyes. “You … you think I’m pretty?”
“Think you’re pretty?” I was gawking, openmouthed. “Jeez, Kendra!”
She blew her nose into the handkerchief, then gasped and stared at it. “Oh, my God! I can’t believe I just did that!” She seemed panicked. “I … I’ll wash it out for you! I’ll ….”
I started laughing and couldn’t stop, and after a few long moments, she joined in. As beautiful as she was, a smile only multiplied the effect. Finally, shaking my head, I said: “Please come in. Let’s talk about things,” and I let go of her and moved off to unlock the door to my room. In the next instant, her laughter had stopped, she gave a startled little cry, and she sprang after me, grabbing my right arm with both of her small hands. I took a deep breath and regarded her curiously for a moment, then smiled patiently and physically moved her left hand down until I could take it in my right one.
The anxiety drained from her slowly. “I … I dropped the handkerchief. I need to pick it up.” She looked back at it, contemplating the dilemma. She couldn’t retrieve it unless she let go of me.
“Leave it,” I suggested, just to see what she’d do.
“No, please. I … I mean, if you don’t want it, I do. Please?” I walked her back so that she could reach down and pick it up; then, being careful not to break physical contact, I unlocked my door and led her into my room.
I turned her toward me again once the door was closed, and once more, she showed no resistance. As long as my hands were on her, she exhibited no anxiety whatsoever, and now she raised her face to mine and treated herself to her new favorite pastime, which was staring into my eyes with a mixture of intense interest, curiosity and emotional longing. I wasn’t going to be able to take much more of this.
“It’s going to happen now,” she said softly. “You’re going to kiss me. It’s going to happen.”
“What’s going to happen?” My voice was hoarse, and I didn’t seem to be able to speak above a whisper.
“Something catastrophic,” she answered simply, as if that made sense. “Something undeniable. Something permanent.”
“I … I don’t understand. Do you want this?”
“Oh, yes. I’ve been waiting for it my whole life.”
I shuddered a sigh. “Kendra, you’re speaking in riddles. You act as if ….” I stopped abruptly at her expression. She was smiling up at me, and she looked … happy. My heart skipped a beat.
“Silly boy,” she chided. “Riddles have simple answers. But … I don’t. It will wait. I’ll answer all your questions. Later. Just … don’t let go of me.” She was still holding my hand.
“Then let lips do what hands do,” I muttered, lowering my face to hers.
“Oh, God. He quotes Shakespeare,” she whispered; and she closed the final two inches of space between us herself, wrapping her arms around my neck and pressing her lips to mine.
As you might have guessed, I’m not the world’s foremost expert on the human kiss. Still, on a scale from one to ten … well, I just don’t see how any kiss could possibly ever beat that one. That set the mark. Despite my bending down toward her, she was on her tiptoes. Using her arms, however, she lifted herself off the ground long enough to let her entire body fall naturally against mine. From our feet to our lips, every single part of me seemed to pressing against every single part of her. Her lower tummy was moving sinuously against my groin, and I began to stiffen noticeably. Her breasts flattened against my lower chest while my hands roamed freely over her back and sides. The velvet had been thick enough to hide the fact that she wasn’t wearing a stitch underneath, but now her nipples began thickening and growing hard. I lost track of time, but it must have gone on for two or three minutes, at least, before I started swaying slightly. I was the only thing keeping both of us upright, but I was not only getting tired, I was starting to feel dizzy.
As I broke it off, she remained clutching me around the neck, her chest heaving, her breath coming in deep gasps. I tried to pull back and look into her eyes, but she kept her face buried in my chest and the side of my neck. “Was that catastrophic?” I asked gently.
“Oh, you have no idea,” she whispered gently. I felt something wet on my neck.
“Aw, Kendra … you’re crying again! What did I do wrong this time?”
She forced herself upright and drew away from me just far enough to pull my tie off. “No more questions, Randy.” Her eyes were sparkling with tears, but she was smiling. “I need you to take me now. I need to please you. I need to surrender to you.”
I shucked off my jacket and tossed it on a chair, then started removing the shirt she had already finished unbuttoning. “Curiouser and curiouser,” I mumbled. I toed off my shoes, since she had just done the same with her high heels. The difference in our heights was acute now.
“First Shakespeare and now Lewis Carroll,” she remarked. “Do you know any American authors?” It appeared the tears had stopped.
I ran my hands up and down her sides. “I really love this dress … but how do we get it off?”
She turned in my arms and pointed back over her shoulder at the top of a zipper, which was hidden by the rich fabric. I pulled it down slowly but steadily until the top of her bare ass was in view, then I pushed the garment off her shoulders. She lowered her hands and let it fall to the floor, and all of a sudden, she was completely nude. She spun slowly to face me. “I’m shy,” she whispered.
I swallowed hard, a combination of nervousness and suppressed lust. My hands were on her waist, but now that her breasts were right there, I couldn’t keep from stroking my way up to them. “You’re perfect,” I husked. “Just perfect.”
Her hands were on my arms, but now she let them encircle my body and pull me to her. I didn’t want to let go of those breasts, but I did, and I held her, pulling her to me, smelling her hair, which had obviously been recently washed with lilac shampoo. “Randy …” she said softly, “it’s … um … been a long time for me. I … I was never really any good at it, anyway. I never knew what to do. I … I want to make this good for you. I wish I could make it perfect … but … but you might need to tell me what to do. I’m sorry.”
I backed off until I could look into her eyes. “What has that son of a bitch done to you? Is he blackmailing you or something?”
“No,” she pleaded. “I want this! I want it more than I’ve ever wanted anything! Please take me! Please!”
Exasperated, I backed off and peeled off my pants, underwear and socks. She kept her hand on my arm while I did that, then stepped forward to press her body against mine again. I stroked her neck, her face, her back. She reached down and wrapped her fingers around my cock, which had been sticking her in the stomach, and I groaned loudly. “Kendra … I … I don’t have any protection. It never dawned on me to bring something.”
That made her pause, though she didn’t let go of my shaft. “Do we really need it? I’m on the pill; and I had a blood test with my last physical. I’m okay.” Again, something was wrong with this picture. She seemed to have no thoughts at all about her own safety; she only seemed intent on pleasing me.
I’d had just about all the mystery I could take for awhile. It would have to wait. I bent down abruptly, hooked my arm below her tight little butt, and hoisted her up into my arms, spinning toward the bed as I did so. She squealed and laughed, then quieted, her arms around my neck, and she sighed deeply. “You’re romantic. Somehow, I knew you would be.” I lowered her to the bed, slid my body beside hers, and I kissed her again.
My hands began to wander, seemingly of their own accord. Her breasts were spectacular, and her nipples were dark and fat and very hard. I slid one hand down between her legs, and she opened herself to me immediately, without any reluctance. She had shaved all her pubic hair, and she was dripping wet. I slid a finger inside her, and she suddenly cried out, stiffened and convulsed in what appeared to be an orgasm, as the walls of her cunt clutched and contracted against my hand. I drew my head back and regarded her inquiringly. Her eyes were shut tight, and she was shivering all over. “A bit of a short fuse?” I asked, smiling.
She peeked at me with one eye and blushed. “I … I can’t help it. You touched me just right and ….” She froze as my hand moved upward along her gash, across her clitoris. “Oh, God, Randy! Here it comes again! UGH! Ahhh! Ahhh!”
The base of my palm was on her stomach, the muscles of which rippled and clenched, while her body strained against my hand. She seemed to have no control at all, and if we hadn’t been having sex, I would have sworn she was having some sort of seizure. Her hands clutched my arms so hard that her nails were digging into me, and I gritted my teeth to keep from crying out. She couldn’t be faking something like this, could she? And if so, why, when we were just getting started? I’d barely touched her.
At last, she reached down and pulled my hand away from her pussy. “Please,” she panted. “Please … no more. Let me rest a minute. I … I can’t take any more right now.” She was breathing hard and still shaking.
“Are you always so … um … quick on the trigger?”
She peered up at me, panting. “No. Never. I … I don’t know what happened. I’ve never … cum with a guy before.” She looked away from me for a moment. “Not that there have been very many.” She took a deep breath and seemed to settle down. “Oh gosh, Randy, just look at you!” She reached down and took my cock in her hand again, then stroked it a few times. “I’ve neglected you, poor baby!”
I groaned. “After that little exhibition, I’m surprised you CAN touch me without results that are … how did you put it? Catastrophic?”
She giggled. “Tell me what you want. I need to please you. I need to obey you. Tell me!”
“Obey?” I asked, incredulously.
“Never mind,” she said spryly. “I know what you want.” She scooted herself down on the bed until her face lined up with me, and without hesitation, she licked me a few times then engulfed me with her mouth.
“Holy shit, Kendra!” I whimpered. I almost lost it, but she pulled her lips free after only a few seconds.
“I’ve never done this before. I’ve read about it, of course. Will you tell me if I’m doing it right?” And she sucked me back into her voracious mouth.
I couldn’t suppress a shudder. “How the hell should I know? This is a first for me, too.” I paused to pant like a dog. “Just off the top of my head, I’d say you’ve figured it out.”
She giggled around my shaft, which felt, by the way, fantastic. She stopped yet again and regarded my prick seriously. “I want you to cum in my mouth. I’ll swallow it, I promise … no matter what it tastes like.”
“Will you really do anything I tell you to?” I asked softly.
That made her look up at me. “Yes! Anything, I promise!”
I reached down and ran my fingers into her hair, then gently pulled her away from me. “Then you can swallow later. I want you now.”
She nodded and crawled back up into my arms. “Yes … please. Take me. Please.”
I pushed her gently onto her back and moved above her, between the legs that she spread wide for me. She reached down, grasped me again, and guided me to her drenched opening, letting go as soon as the head was in and throwing her arms around my neck. I pressed downward, slowly, relentlessly, until I was buried all the way, then I paused and waited. It wasn’t going to take much more to make me blast inside her, and I wanted to delay things as long as I could.
But that wasn’t going to happen. The walls of her cunt squeezed suddenly with a strong spasm, and she tilted her head back and cried out. Her inner muscles clutched me again, paused, and then did it again. “SO DEEP!” she screamed at the ceiling. “Oh God, Randy! You’re so deep!” And she launched back into another of her rollicking, crazy orgasms. That, of course, was all it took for me, and I felt my balls contract as I shot what felt like a gallon of jizz into her, throbbing and squirting for what must have been close to a full minute. I felt it oozing out of her, onto the sheet. She seemed to quiet down before I did, but she held me tightly, pressing her pelvis up toward me whenever she felt me throb again, until I finally stopped and lay heavily atop her. At last, I started to rise.
“No, please! Please stay inside me. Stay just like this!” I collapsed back onto her again, but she seemed to cherish my heavy weight. I’d finally caught my breath after another couple minutes, and I lifted myself up onto my elbows. I slid one forearm under her neck and began stroking her face with the fingertips of my other hand. She sighed. “Do you feel that? How close we are? You’re still inside me, and I’ve never felt so close to another human being in my whole life.” We were silent for a few minutes. Finally: “Randy?”
“Yes?”
“Promise me you won’t leave me tonight.”
I smiled down at her. “I wouldn’t dream of it.”
“Promise?”
“Of course I promise.” She looked so serious that I couldn’t help but kiss her. Then I kissed her again.
“Oh my gosh! You’re getting big again!” She started to gyrate her hips, thrusting up at me. “Do me again. Please?”
I laughed out loud, then abruptly rolled us over so that I was on my back. I hadn’t slipped out of her, and despite giving a little shriek at my sudden maneuver, she settled atop me almost triumphantly, sitting up, her palms on my chest, and she began smoothly riding me, up and down with a steady rhythm. I was pleased that I was going to last awhile this time. She came. After another few minutes, I reached down and began stroking her clit, and she came again. As I finally started feeling my loins begin to boil with my approaching discharge, I reached up and grasped both nipples between thumbs and forefingers, rolling them, and she came yet again.
When it was finally over, she collapsed atop me, and in less than a minute, I realized she was asleep. I rolled us onto our sides and held her. Very soon, I was out like a light.
I don’t know what awakened me. She was nuzzled against me, holding me. The light was still on, and very slowly, very carefully, I extracted myself from our tangled arms and legs and slid out of bed. The clock on the bed table said 4:45. I switched off the overhead light, but the blinds were open, and moonlight washed across the sleeping nude in my bed almost caressingly. I watched her sleep for a long time, then I turned and tiptoed into the bathroom. I don’t know how long I was in there … but it couldn’t have been much more than sixty seconds. I sat to pee, afraid that the sound might awaken her otherwise … I even decided not to flush. And when I came back out again … she was gone.
I stood at the foot of the bed, staring at it, uncomprehending. The bed was still there. The moonlight was still there. Her dress was still on the floor near the chair at the side of the room. Where the hell had she gone? I turned and cast a look at the closed door, wondering if I could have possibly missed hearing it. I was just about to call out for her, when I heard a strange noise. I cocked my head, listening intently, and finally, I heard it again. I raced to the bedside stand and fumbled the lamp on, which, at its lowest setting, did not provide all that much illumination.
And there she was, curled up in a fetal position in the corner, sitting more or less upright, her feet moving, shoving against the floor, pushing, as if to ram herself further into the narrowest confines of the walls, away from the center of the room. Her eyes were clenched shut, and she was shaking violently. A thin, keening sound was coming from her, deep in her throat. I’ve never witnessed anything quite so … pathetic. I didn’t know what to do. Was she still asleep? Having a bad dream? Should I make a noise, or would that scare her? Quietly, I crept up to her on hands and knees, and I reached out, laying my hand on her shoulder. I kept my voice low. “Kendra?”
Her eyes opened and stared at me. Her mouth was open in a grotesque pantomime of a scream, but she had no voice, and for a moment, I wondered if she was breathing. And then in an instant, she sprang at me, knocking me over backwards, barely missing the edge of the bed. She threw her arms around me and clasped me so tightly I couldn’t speak.
“You left me!” she croaked.
I twisted my neck far enough to draw breath. “I didn’t leave you. I just went to the bathroom.”
She was shaking violently. “You left me! I woke up, and you weren’t there! You left me!”
“Kendra, I didn’t leave you. I was in the bathroom.” I struggled to get the two of us to our feet, but it was difficult because she refused to relinquish her hold on me. There were tears now. Lots of them. Had she been so scared that she was unable even to ever cry?
“You … I … We … were touching. And … and then … you were gone! You weren’t there! And … and there was no one to touch! I … I couldn’t touch ….”
I pulled her over to the bed, sat down, and drew her in after me. Somehow, I was able to grab a couple pillows and prop them up against the headboard so that I could sit, holding her. I soothed her, petted her, stroked her … touched her. Neither of us spoke for long, long minutes. Finally, I could delay it no longer.
“Kendra, what’s the matter with you?”
She took a deep breath. “The way I figure it, we have acute monophobia, a crippling obsessive-compulsive disorder and severe anxiety complex.”
I tried to draw away from her far enough to see her eyes, but she wouldn’t let go of me. “We? Janie, too? Both of you with the same condition?” She nodded silently and I continued. “How long have you … um … had this problem?”
“I thought it had been months, but we just found out that it’s only been a couple weeks. And that’s not the half of it. I wish you weren’t a part of it, but you are.”
“Me? What do you mean?”
“I’ll have you know, Mr. Randy ….” She hesitated. “I don’t even know your last name.”
“Rustman,” I said quietly.
“Rustman,” she whispered; then she said it again, as if she was testing the way the word felt on her tongue. She sighed deeply. “I am in love with you, Mr. Rustman.”
I stroked her bare back. “Let’s not rush things, Kendra. We’ve only known each other for seven or eight hours.”
“But that’s not true. I’ve known you for much longer.” Finally, she looked up at me and smiled at my expression, then she lowered her head again so that I couldn’t see her face as she dropped the bombshell. “I was forced to love you, Randy. He programmed me to love you. But … oh God … it’s real. I love you. I do. I love you more than anyone or anything else in the whole world. I’d die for you.” I didn’t know what to say to that. “You don’t need to worry, though. I know you don’t love me … and I don’t expect you to reciprocate or understand. We’ll go our separate ways.” She paused again. “But you’re the one, Randy. I’ll never love anyone else like I love you. You’re the love of my life. Now and forever.”
Suddenly, there was a horrible scream from a room nearby. I lurched upright and started to get out of bed, but Kendra put her hand on my leg. “Don’t get up. It’s okay, I think. It’s Janie.”
The scream came again. Once more, I moved to get up, but again she stopped me with a gesture. “Does Frank get up to use the bathroom like you do in the night?”
“How the hell should I know?” I groused. “We have separate rooms and separate bathrooms.”
The scream didn’t come a third time, and quiet claimed the big mansion again. “There,” she said. “It’s alright now. He’s with her again, or she would keep screaming.” She sighed. “She probably scared poor Frank to death.”
I took a ragged breath. “Will you really do anything I tell you?”
“Yes, of course.”
“Then tell me,” I ordered. “Tell me now.”
And there, in that dim room, in the wee hours of the morning, a scared, beautiful, naked girl snuggled against my body and told me her story. It was a tale of sweet innocence, unimagined passion, unshakeable friendship and unspeakable horror.